Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, ME/CFS

This is the official medical description of a disease that is still barely understood today. In most cases, those affected find no effective help. They are not even guaranteed sympathy. Because you can’t “see” any of it.

When deep exhaustion speaks a different language

Imagine waking up in the morning and feeling exhausted as soon as you open your eyes. Your body seems empty, your mind dull. Everything you used to find easy is now difficult. Every step becomes a challenge. It feels as if your inner light has been dimmed. As if your access to yourself has been blocked.

But it’s not depression, it’s something fundamentally different. It’s difficult to explain. You can’t “see” anything.

If this doesn’t just last for a few days, but for many months or even years, the whole thing gets a name: Chronic fatigue syndrome. But the term hardly explains anything. Your lab results are unremarkable. Doctors shrug their shoulders. And you yourself wonder what’s actually going on.

What if your exhaustion is not a mistake? Not a medical defect, but an expression of something deeper?

What if it is a wake-up call from your soul? From your being that originally came here with a purpose. Into a world that perhaps never really saw you. A society that has bent you from the start, conformed you, pressed you into shape.

Perhaps you are now at a point where there is no more bending. Your entire system is saying: stop. And that is not a failure, but an invitation to return to yourself.

Nobody can take that away from you, nobody can “diagnose” it, and there is no medication.

It’s not your fault. You can understand.

Perhaps you are now asking yourself the question: “So did I cause this myself?”, “Am I to blame?” The answer is a resounding no.

Blame is the wrong concept. It’s not about blaming anyone, including yourself. It’s about recognizing connections. At your own pace. With room for doubt, fear and hope.

You don’t have to find quick solutions. It’s not about speed. It’s about truthfulness. It’s about being willing to look. And then, at your own pace, to take new steps. One at a time.

When functioning becomes a trap

You may have learned to take responsibility. To be strong. To have your everyday life under control. Maybe even to appear perfect.

But somewhere along the way, you lost yourself. Your inner voice became quieter. Maybe it was never loud. Perhaps you internalized “functioning” so early on that you never got to know your true self.

Many people live successfully on the outside and feel a creeping emptiness on the inside. They work for others. For recognition. For an image of life that was never really their own.

And at some point the body can no longer take it. It rebels. And that feels like a deep, existential exhaustion.

The last kick over the edge

And at some point it becomes too much. This can happen gradually, but also very suddenly. Sometimes seemingly triggered by an event. An accident, an illness, a stroke of fate, a “vaccination”, something from outside.

But that is only the trigger, not the cause. Because the exhaustion was already there. You just held out for a long time. You had to persevere. There was no other way.

Your exhaustion is not a deficit, it is a call

What if this exhaustion is a message? A last attempt by your true self to bring you back?

Perhaps you have been on a path for a long time that no longer corresponds to your nature. Perhaps you have repeatedly suppressed needs, dreams or feelings. Out of a sense of duty, out of fear, out of reason.

Perhaps you have suppressed your inner knowledge, denied it. You kept silent where you should have spoken, stayed seated where you should have stood up.

But you are neither too much nor wrong. You’ve just been on a path that doesn’t nourish you for too long. Now is the time to ask yourself: Am I really living my life? Or just a role on the outside?

When life no longer makes sense and how you can find it again

Many people who suffer from chronic fatigue have lost themselves at some point. Not abruptly, but gradually. Through adaptation. Through expectations. Through an image that was never their own.

Healing begins where you stop judging yourself. Where you recognize: This exhaustion is not a sign of weakness , but of depth. Proof that something is still alive in you. That your inner being has not given up on you.

The first step: end the inner struggle

Do you know these thoughts?

“I’m too sensitive.”

“I’m doing everything wrong.”

“I’m not enough.”

These sentences are old. They come from your past, not from your truth. They gnaw at your strength. But they are not you.

And perhaps you’ve been projecting this onto the outside world for a long time:

“The world is wrong.”

“The others don’t understand anything.”

“Everything is too much.”

The first step towards change is not to do more. It is to stop fighting yourself and the world. It’s not easy, but it’s a start.

The second step: feel your inner guide again

A voice lives deep inside you. Perhaps it has become quiet. But it is still there.

Your intuition, your feeling for authenticity, for coherence. You don’t need new methods or clever concepts. What you need is you. Real. True. With everything you feel, including tiredness. You don’t need medicine, you need understanding. Your own.

Start listening to yourself. Not with your head, but with your whole being. It’s not about understanding with your mind. It’s about feeling. And about trust. In yourself. And in life.

The third step: realign your life from your innermost being

When your body goes on strike, it doesn’t want to “paralyze” you. It wants to protect you. From a path that destroys you. From a life that leaves you empty.

This exhaustion is not the end. It is the transition. The threshold to something new. Perhaps still unclear. But real. And this change does not begin with big decisions. But with small ones:

An honest no. A silent pause. A walk alone, without a destination. Less thinking, more feeling. Less conformity, more you. And at some point: a new course. One that feels right.

Trust is the silent power of your healing

Healing is not a goal. It is not a state that you have to achieve. It is a path that unfolds. Within you. You don’t have to fight anymore. You don’t have to be strong. You can be tired. And still go on. Not against you, but with you.

Perhaps slowly. Perhaps groping. But alive. And honest. If you feel that your old life no longer fits, then it’s not about trying harder. It’s about becoming still. And to meet yourself.

Your exhaustion is not a sign of failure. It is the call of your life: Come back. To yourself.

My help with this?

Often the causes lie so deep, so far back in the past, in the ancestral line, in transgenerational traumas, that you cannot get to them on your own. Too much lies above it. And you no longer have the strength.

Too many mechanisms of repression, of protection. Everything seems too confused, too little of your connection can be felt.

Then I come into play. Because I can look, I can understand, I can see how everything is connected. And guide you through the process like a mountain guide. The process that untangles everything, that creates clarity and that ultimately leads you to who YOU really are.

This is a process that requires strength and courage and takes time. But you don’t have to go it alone. Feel free to write to me at any time if you have any questions: mail@gerhard-zirkel.com